epiphany

it finally dawned on me
the answer


and, like watching a film in reverse, it
made sense before
it ever happened...


and after it all
happened


we met... and we knew
(each other)


it couldn't work...
there was a reason
(there had to be)


but then you asked
and i answered


and we were
truly
(godammit)
tried to be


flying (we became a comet)


elated~


the taste - we had
both promised
this would happen...
and we did


      deja vu
                               echoing
lives past


words words words
countless strings of seaweed
in our sea - i resent them
every day


games and twisted
tongues and lies
i hate them all


before words
we were


perfect


and we still are


and I hum in my
silence, my eyes
shining, a million
broken hearts


were my own


i mourned for
every lost
possibility of us
and now
              looking back


i see

the seeker

feeling my way in the dark

not afraid but 

...apprehensive 

senses heightened 

hyper 

aware

i feel a heartbeat

i hear tormented screams 

from behind doors

far away

yet feel safe somehow

as long as 

i follow 

the drum of the heart

we are all made of stars

cosmic dust whirling 

pulsing with life

i love sensing 

chemical reactions

i smell sweat and

the heat is tangible

running my fingers along the walls

i realize they are alive and breathing

oh.. i giggle to myself and feel my surroundings tremble in reply

it seems i've fallen down another rabbit hole

fuego

i was never able to resist

playing with fire

staring so deep

investigating oranges, yellows and blues

deeper and deeper

until you feel a disturbance in your whole field of view

you see back through time... 

how fire kept man alive

something that commands respect

while it can warm you 

it's relieving to know 

i have no control

tie me up

throw me in

watch me burn